I made a quiz finally
Anyway, a sexuality quiz that’s 100% accurate and doesn’t use stereotypes
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Physics teachers are the funniest people alive
You ever unfollow someone because they post very little you want to see but still feel bad because you like the person behind the blog
Because idk
can’t believe the bruins dictated 2019 as a good year
…water doesn’t fucking taste like milk and milk doesn’t fucking taste like water
…water doesn’t fucking taste like milk and milk doesn’t fucking taste like water
nO StOP IT
i aM DEAD
FUCK OFF OK
hognoses are fucking ridiculous
i knew in the 2nd grade that standardized testing was bullshit. harry potter book 4 had just come out and i was at a good part. harry had just put his name into the goblet of fire.
during the standardized test, we were allowed to keep a post-test book on our desk. i diligently got started on part 1: english. at the time, all of the answers went on the same sheet, but all of the questions were in different booklets. so i finish all my english questions, read in my extra time, and then it’s part 2: math.
i realize i have answered all of my english questions on the math portion of the answer sheet. at first, annoyed but undeterred, i’m like. okay great i gotta erase every bubble. but i get bored around question 5 of doing this because… like… harry potter is sitting on my desk and i could just give them the wrong answers. so i answer maybe 10 whole questions in the math portion, copy the english answers over to where they actually belong, and then crack open the book and call it a day.
i obviously failed. this is the real life, not a movie. my parents were called in. i had scored in the lowest percentile. i was bad at math. i was concerningly bad at math. i could have done better just guessing than how i did with the english answers.
if this was just a funny story, someone would ask me “why did you do so badly when you usually get fairly average grades” and i would have said “i wanted to read harry potter, not take this stupid test.” but it’s the real life, and nobody asked. instead, i was branded stupid and bad at math. i got placed in a lower math than i needed to be in; got bored, stopped paying attention. knew i was in the “worst at math” group, started saying “i’m bad at math” and 100% stopped trying because the further i fell behind, the worse i got. through the rest of my academic career – until senior year in high school, i never got above a c on a math test, because i was “just bad” at math.
i had undiagnosed adhd. the only reason i know now i have adhd is because at 22 years old, i finally went to a therapist, who effectively said, “are you kidding me you have the most obvious case of attention deficit i’ve ever seen.”
but nobody had been looking. my one test grade had given teachers permission to not look, because, obviously, i was bad at math. the one time i got 100% on a math test – that one time in senior year – i remember my math teacher looking at it and saying “it’s clear that if you just focused, you could do the work.”
in college i’d take a math class and i actually “just focused” for the first time in my life – meaning i treated math as a challenge, but one i could overcome with the skills i’d learned all on my own, through constant work and practice. i got the highest grade in my class. i still think i’m bad at math.
which makes me wonder: how many people got fucked over because of something stupid like “i was too preoccupied with harry potter”. who had nobody looking out for them. who slipped under the radar because – come on, aren’t some people just bad at things?
I think this is the exact same sort of thing that happened with me in every class at school that required sitting at desks while reading, writing, and paying attention to the teacher talking. I couldn’t stay focussed, so I just assumed I was bad at school and bad at learning. In elementary I had teachers trying to take me out of class for behavioral issues; I couldn’t focus on the work even though it was painfully easy. I was the second worst reader in my grade 2 class until the day I found Harry Potter and overnight I became the best reader in the class. I had just assumed I was bad at reading and bad at English despite it being my first language (I was in a French immersion school) and despite loving fiction I could never focus on anything I was required to read. If I liked a book I could finish 700 pages in a weekend. If I didn’t like it I could read the same paragraph 20 times and still not know what it said. I’m not sure if I have ADHD, because no one bothered to check, but I wouldn’t be surprised if I did. I’m only just realizing I’m an extremely quick learner, I’m just not good at forcing myself to learn when it isn’t enjoyable. For the last three or four months I haven’t been able to do anything because all I’m interested in is Minecraft, and it distracts me 24/7 even when I’m at work with no possibility of playing it. It’s always like this for me. In school I was getting 95-100% in every class I liked, and failing every class I didn’t like (some with 0% even though I attended every day) because all I thought about was Theatre. It’s annoying when others want you to learn but don’t know how to teach you, but a godsend when I truly enjoy something and want to suceed.
Honestly.. I think a lot of people get fucked over because nobody noticed or even if they notice actually helped with the issue. Like I’ve read stories on the internet that SCREAMED ADHD/something similar at me, but the person clearly just thought that was how it was.
And ADHD really isn’t all that hard to notice, even without (obvious) hyperactivity.
I’m sure it happens a lot. And I think it’s inexcusable, really. Because it fucks up people and there lives.
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